Conflicted...!

My shatterd heart

Beats ... but in vain,

To hold your Love inside,

But now...I am tired to contemplate,

The reasons you gave...

The choices you made...

My wounded feelings,

Oh.. GOSH..! are still alive,

For you to heal... a kiss a touch

But now...I am tired to contemplate,

The reasons you gave...

The choices you made...

My bleeding soul,

Values gashes... you gave to it,

For it keeps ur memories fresh

But now...I am tired to contemplate,

The reasons you gave...

The choices you made...

My LOST hope,

Still seeks for your care n philia,

For it was calved...when once u touched..

But now...I am tired to contemplate,

The reasons you gave...

The choices you made...

Troubled times... i was unhinged

When u held my hand..

N when u gave that tender smile,

But now...I am tired to contemplate,

The reasons you gave...

The choices you made...

I'll believe... i was wrong,

And now i give up..!

I haven't slept in years...have waited long

Have waited for u to come..along

Now...i am tired to... ...

of reasons u gave... ...

of choices u made...

I fall again..

fall again to fly..

but never ... i'll let u go(of my heart)

and...

will always keep ya.. in the corner of my eye..!

Rendezvous with Destiny...

Heard a voice,

A symphony,

Am i awake,
If i am not... i donn wanna be.

No... its not dream,
I figured out,
I am rushing out,
To catch a glimpse... who the hell is she..!

Am i stuck,
Coz its taking long,
Holy shit,
Or its the clock thats ticking slow..?

Perplexed mind,
Fascinated heart,
Portraits her,
While i crashed in hallway... tht dimly glow, yellow.

Lub dub... lub dub,
Its picking pace,
Thunderbolt struck,
I watch in awe... dusky she, while she waved HELLO..!

For heaven's sake,
Stop playing
with your hair,
It looks fantastic... fallen on your face.

Her fingers paused,
She smiled,
Did she hear, was i loud... i feared..!
Or she just read ... my stare...!

Mesmerized,
Hypnotized,
...and paralyzed ...,
I basked in her fragrance..., puffed out... the holy smoke.!.

if...!

Pain was there,

But still she smiled,

Held my hand,

N we said Goodbye... my eyes though lied,

... if she could have read my mind...!

Once again... ,

I dinn react..,

Stood beside her,

All feelings, emotions... held in check,

... if she could have read my mind...!

Million memories of her,

Flashed in a split,

Inside i screamed,

Donn leave me darling..!... but not a word,

... if she could have read my mind...!

She turned back to leave,

Her eyes urging...ME,

... to say IT !

N i said it loud and again... but not a word (SHIT..!),

... if she could have read my mind...!

She walked... distance grew,

She was now just an outline... on horizon,

Careless me watched... she was gone,

I should run, but... why ?

..if she was MY... should have read my mind...!

Now i contemplate in cloud of smoke,

I shud hav ran, i shud hav screamed...

Shud hav streached my hand...

And said IT ... while i can,

...if i dinn hear to careless me...

...if i had the heart...

...if i had.. read her mind...!