Antithesis..

Life is strange,
It gives me choices,
When i need .. 'em NOT..!
N when i wann ...'em bad,
I get stuck with none.. not even ONE.

My prayers... my wish,
Bounce back unheard,
N i ponder...
If der..really is a GOD..?
In whom i don't ..entirely disbelieve.

I get up on silent nights..soaked n baffled,
N think...if there could ..be..!
a PLAUSIBLE change,
Which will bail me out,
From this feeling.. so odd...so deranged.

I take up walks...lone... alone,
...stretched a many miles,
No directions, no thoughts,
No destinations..no present future or past...
My psyche... tracing path... till my feet gives up.

Life is strange,
It gives me choices,
When i need .. 'em NOT..!
N when i wann ...'em bad,
I get stuck with none.. not even ONE.