You Dont BREAK My HEART..!

After a long time and infinite failed trials,

When any hope to find her, was, squeezed out

She found me…. And I was pleasantly surprised

All in an instant my faith …. revived in ….. love, when I saw her smile.

She was there in front of me…

Still … unaware of my feelings

(Though feelings are NO feelings unless the ONE feels it)

And I lost in her mellifluous ....talk

While a part of me still seek comfort that she was here at last

Her beautiful face, her fragrant hair, her elegant chin..!

Her simple smile, her bare skin

Just make me feel I am flying high….!

And I swear it works…. better than DRY GIN

I hope this time things go well

Coz again it’s my heart

That pumps like a V8…. Whenever I say her name

Along with, those three pious words

(I Love You)

I pray she knows that she’s my world

Without her I am just a body separated from soul

And I will wait….. for ages forever

Till MY last breath erodes.

All the while!

Watching the old ancient skies………

My thoughts get glued…..to empyrean YOU and I wonder why?

Gripped by the feeling I am gliding in the light blue slushy clouds,

And your greenish blue eyes gazing …. ME, all the while.

The bliss of fresh sunshine

And the chilly soft ….. breeze..!

I sense are illumining my soul stroking my face,

And….. ME chasing your holy elysian … touch, all the while.

I wish never, never… ever open up my eyes

And die a million times….. !!

Coz it’s your rosy lips and your gentle smile,

That gimme the reasons to live on, all the while.

I long, to hold your redolent hair

And kiss your pretty back …. !!!

But…..all wishes vanished and you are gone,

When I was feeling ‘em close, all the while.

Confusion!!!

You want to see me laugh…
But you don’t want it loud.
You don’t want to see me sad……
But love tears in maaa…. eyezz..!
You want to see me happy..
But things that make me happy horrify you.
You want me to be open…. with ya….
But my feelings, my thoughts…. hurt you!!!
You want me to talk unabashed..
But being judgmental …….. its YOU .
Why is it..? You want everything for me …… I want for me…. !!
Yet wannaa cut everything I would love to…
I Love You and I know You Love me too……..
But getting loved, how…….. You wish!!
Is just not always possible…
Be it for ME or be it for YOU.

Dreams….Hope.... Me..n Xpectations!!!

I am devoid of feelings and thoughts,
It’s just … insomnia or all hope lost..!!
Some say I was never meant to grow up,
But I know they never knew me enuff.
The burden of expectations was never my past,
But I never knew ….. the dayzz were short.

I am devoid of feelings and thoughts,
It’s just … insomnia or all hope lost..!!
The empty chase was not my dream.
Scribbling all crap….. ! for a degree is what I mean.
Gone are the days when blessings were vast
Now it’s just monotonocity that cripples my heart…!!!

…. Insanity now seems so perfectly sane..!
And I can just hope again, to play carefree soaked in mud and rain.

Forever in my Heart.

I miss those moments of sharing glance,
Your playful smile, you lost in trance.

The walk in the park and your romance,
Those phone calls and your lovely laff from night to dawn,
The crazy nights when we use to dance,
I would love to relive those nights if I had the chance.
I miss those moments of sharing glance,
Your playful smile, you lost in trance.

I wish again to kiss your lips ,
And feel again your breath on bare skin,
I just don’t care what’s right or wrong,
I want you , where you belong.
I miss those moments of sharing glance,
Your playful smile, you lost in trance.

Your finger strokes through my hair,
I crave most….. On the sleepless nights,
Far away, I know not, you are where???
My soul still seeks, your presence besides.
I miss those moments of sharing glance,
Your playful smile, you lost in trance.

I still hold the promises made to you,
Though you left me without a clue,
But my heart sings you will be back,
It be my grave, lost, in old shacks.
I miss those moments of sharing glance,
Your playful smile, you lost in trance.

I miss those moments of sharing glance,
Your playful smile, you lost in trance.

Only You.!!

It’s a sweet summer morn and the sky is blue,
I am looking for ya, without a clue..!
The path I walk will it lead to you,
I don’t care though the chances are few.
I may go down many a times,
But I believe, in the end you’ll drive me through..!

Whenever your name is below my pen,
I wish, time to stop there and then..!
Coz it’s for you…. My life is true,
Else I’ll be lost like morning dew.
I may go down many a times,
But I believe, in the end you’ll drive me through..!

Will I ever stop, but for you..????
May the whole world say……. NOT..! It’ll be anything but true.
The more I try to shut ya out…
More my HEART beats for you.
I may go down many a times,
But I believe, in the end you’ll drive me through..!

My heart my mind, my body my soul,
My senses my cheers, my talk my tears.
Want U back..!
By all means.
Coz when I’m all lost and any hope is gone,
Its only only and only you….. who can drive me through.

Your Cry Your Smile..!

Your cry your smile, your walk your talk, your weird dreams your deafening screams J

Your holy touch…the way you clutch, the way you care..and the earrings u wear…!

I just love you, maaa baby……

You make my senses go crazy!!

The blink of your eyes and …… curl of your lips

Taste of your tongue….! your face so beautiful N so young..!

I just can’t move…away my stare

All I wish is to be your Teddy bear.

The twist of your neck and your shaking hips

Your delicate hands…. waving good-bye

The bounce of your hair on your back….. so lean

When you walked….. in white Ts and light blue jeans.

Without you…. maaa baby

Days…..don’t seem bright, in…. Spring noon,

Nights….. don’t seem…. dark even with NO stars and NO moon

I lose all my breath, as if….. on death bed..!!!

I wish I had ..ya..!!

It may be raining outside
But its my heart thats sinking
And I wish, to hold you back tight
But for my fingers nanh moving....!

I love you like anything , is what i'm saying
Its just my lips aren't quivering
Dont you feel it in my eyes ?
The passion i hold for youuuu.....!

I still remember those long nights
When you slept on my lap
And I wonder whaen will ??
Those nights roll backkk...!

Im craving for your touch
And your head on my chest
Be it my last night
And I loose rest...!

It may be raining outside
But its my heart thats sinking
And I wish, to hold you back tight
But for my fingers nanh moving....!